5 Years in the Making

He knows that I want him. He knows that I fantasize about him every night. But he continues to play GAMES!

I've known him for five years. Five long years. You could call him my first 'boyfriend'. We talked on the phone every night and did ALMOST everything that high school couples do. We never had sex, however. We were both young, and the relationship failed, as do many gay relationships. We fell out several times but always managed to end up back in each others lives.

Fast forward FIVE YEARS. We're both older and know exactly what we want in life. He has grown into a sexy, confident, educated man dipped in chocolate, and I'm older, wiser, and sexier than I was five years ago. He's about 5'7 with a nice, toned body, and he stays on top of the fashion game...always wearing the hottest clothes and shoes. And he's in college...nothin turns me on like an educated brother...

I met him on campus one day...he told me he wanted to talk. I picked him up and we drove around the city.

He had on a pair of black fitted jeans, a white v-neck t-shirt, a black biker jacket, and a pair of black dunks.

"You turnin Gothic on me?" I asked as he slid into the passengers seat.


"Fuck you...my outfit is on point nigga!" he said as he closed the door. He looked at me and smiled. His outfit was definitely hot, but I wasn't about to let him know that. He glanced at my lap and licked his lips.


"See somethin you like?" I asked with a devilish grin. In the five years that we have known each other he has never seen my dick but I could tell from his expression that he was intrigued, and my manhood started growing.


"Nigga stop. I called you because I want to talk" he said, keeping his eyes on my lap.


"Mmmhmmm..."


Sinful thoughts started racing through my head as I entered the freeway. I imagined him unbuckling my pants and pleasuring me as I drove 70 mph. I imagined myself pulling over and tearing out his insides in the back seat. I took a deep breath.


"You alright?" he asked as he grabbed my thigh.


Hell naw I wasn't alright! I was horny as fuck and plotting how I was gonna fuck this dude tonight...but I wasn't about to show that. I had to be calm, cool, and collected.


"Yeah I'm good. I hope you don't think I'm fallin for this 'I need to talk to you' bullshit. You tryna get some of this dick!"


"Boy I don't want you" was what he said as his hand moved closer to my piece. I was rock hard and ready to go, but I held my composure.


"Where are we going?" he asked.


"You'll see...just sit back and enjoy the ride."


We pulled up to my house about 15 minutes later. We walked inside, sat down on the couch, and I offered him a drink. I poured some Grey Goose into a glass and mixed it with a little cranberry juice. He took the glass from my hand and started sipping.


"Ooooh this is good...where did you learn how to make drinks?"


"From ya mama"


I laughed as I went to the room to change. I jumped in the shower for a quick second, then put on some black basketball shorts and a wife beater, and sprayed a little Jean Paul Gaultier on my chest. JPG makes the draws come off instantly!!!


I walked back into the kitchen and poured him another drink. He started loosening up and getting affectionate.


"I thought you wanted to talk?" I whispered in his ear as I rubbed his thigh. He looked at my shorts and he could tell that I was on hard. He looked me in the eyes, then looked back down at my lap.


"Are you gonna play with it or just stare at it?" I asked as I pulled my dick from my shorts. I was 10.5 inches, cut, and READY. 






STAY TUNED!

Basketball Season is HERE!!!

Now everybody knows that I LOVE football (players)!!!

But there are certain basketball players that can definitely get THA BIZZNESS!!!

Brandon Roy

6'6 211lbs

Mo Williams

6'1 190lbs

(Do you see the THIGHS!!!????)

Allen Iverson

6'0 165lbs

Stay tuned...more to come!

Little Red Boxer Briefs

So I came home from a LOOOONNNNNNGGGGGG and painful day at work...my BF was layin on the couch wearing a wife beater and a pair of red EXPRESS boxer briefs...total hotness. And he was seductively sitting on the couch with his legs slightly spread...as if they were saying 'COME AND GET IT'

So I walked over to the couch, leaned over, and gave him a kiss. He stood up and I grabbed his waist...one thing led to another, and BAM!

BEST SEX EVER!!!

It was mind-blowing!
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OK...here's what REALLY happened:

Came home
Saw him in the boxer briefs
TRIED to get some
But he killed the mood...started talking about his job or something like that. Now I don't mind listening to him talk about his job and his students...I love it. BUT there's a time and a place for that, and it's NOT when my dick is rocked up and halfway in...but imjussayin...

Torn

So I have a degree in FINANCE from PRAIRIE VIEW A&M UNIVERSITY. Finance is NOT an easy subject. It is one of the most painful disciplines to study...it takes a giant set of BALLS to make it through the finance curriculum. And it takes a certain PASSION.

So why did I pick this difficult major?

Because I wanna make MONEY! Funny thing: I have no desire to enter the world of CORPORATE AMERICA. I don't wanna spend the next 30 years as someone else BITCH, because let's face it, when you work for a company you become that company's BITCH. And that's not what I wanna be.

I wanna work for MYSELF. I wanna own my own company...and I plan to do that very soon. But if that's the case, then YTF did I spend the last four years at this university? Makes my degree seem pointless...well not pointless, but you get the drift.

And then I realized that a lot of people have degrees that they don't USE. Example: My BF studied African-American history and now he's a teacher. OK, I guess that KINDA makes sense. But again, you get the point. But I'm just VENTING...

I-45 pt. 2

Yall thought I forgot???


OK so I got a text from sexy dreadz

'Sup...dreadz'

I'm thinkin, WTF? I was just playin when I took his number. I didn't plan on doing anything with this dude. BUT he was hella sexxxi. He looked something like this:

Imagine the many things your tongue can do...so my mind is racing. I had 3 options:

OPTION A: Play the role of the good boy and leave him alone
OPTION B: Take an 'extended lunch' and smash his brains out...or put the tongue to work
OPTION C: All of the above

Ok, option C doesn't really make sense...I txtd him back.

'Sup'

About 10 minutes later he sent another text.

'Come thru'

UGH...so I'm faced with the same three options. Well, two options actually. What should I do? What would YOU do? You would fuck...don't deny it. You know you would!

And so would I...we arranged to meet up when I got off of work that evening. I got off, went home, showered, and went to his house. He lives about 10 minutes away from me. He answered the door wearing a pair of basketball shorts and nothing else. I stared at his cakes as I followed him into the apartment...nearly started drooling. I looked around...he had a nice little pad. It was tastefully decorated and I noticed the giant 52 inch plasma on the wall...the boy had TASTE. We sat on the couch and he offered me a drink...we went through the usual 10 minutes of 'getting to know you' BS before we started the foreplay.

The man was TALENTED! Before I knew it my shirt was on the floor and he was caressing my back and kissing my neck. He had one hand against my back and his other against my thigh. I grabbed his waist and moved along his toned legs. I moved from his chest to his neck to his lips. He pulled my dick out and started sucking...and sucking...and sucking like a PRO. I went CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!! His head game was ON POINT! It was SOOOOOO good that I SPLASHED in his mouth...total hottness.

He pulled his python out and started stroking as I nibbled on his ear...5 minutes later he was done.

SO I didn't fuck, but I should have! And I might...next time...

HEHEHE

Uh Uh RUDENESS!

SO I came home from work with a PIZZA BOX and sat it on the kitchen counter.

BF: Did you have pizza at work today?

ME: (sarcastically) Nahhhhhhh I just brought home a random pizza box.

BF: ASSHOLE!

OK  maybe my comment was a little rude. Ok it was totally rude and uncalled for. But really...it was a silly question. But I run into this situation every day at work. People ask the craziest questions with the most obvious answers.

Customer: UHHHH why my phone don't work??? (I know that's not correct grammar, but my customers are idiots)

Me: Because you have to turn it on

Ok, they aren't THAT dumb, but you get my drift. But #imjustsayin

Weezy F. Jailbird

So LIL WAYNE is going to JAIL. Remember waaaay back in 2007 when he got arrested for a gun charge in NYC? Well he got a plea bargain. He will plead guilty and spend 8 months in jail instead of going to trial and facing up to 15 years. (Read Here)

HMMMMMM

I watched Weezy's BEHIND THE MUSIC and they said that the gun wasn't his...so why does he have to plead guilty to a crime that he didn't commit? Unless he IS guilty...interesting. What happned to the concept of innocent until proven guilty. I don't think it exists anymore.

But the point is this: another rapper is going to jail. These men are idolized in their communities, but they all end up in jail. Is it because of their fame? If Lil Wayne was just a regular dude, would he have been arrested? But I'm just sayin...

Love and Life at Freedom U-Part VII

I wouldn't call it revenge...or maybe I would. I cheated. And it felt GOOD! But Clarence deserved it after what he did to me. He was a liar, a cheater, and a whore. I found out he cheated on me twice before, once with Troy and again with a football player. I decided I was ready to talk to him two days after the incident with Jeremy.

"Baby we need to talk"

"Oh so you're finally ready to talk to me? Bout time..."

"Fuck you...you fucked another dude! Why?"

"I don't know...I got lost in the moment"

"That's a weak ass excuse...what about the football player?"

"Ok...so I was unfaithful. I'm sorry. I love you"

"Fuck you...how would you feel if I did the same thing to you? How would you feel if I fucked around with other dudes?"

"You wouldn't do that shit..."

"Oh really? I fucked Jeremy...twice"

He got extremely quiet and gave me a look that I've never seen before. He looked hurt and defeated, as if he was going to break down any moment. He lifted his hand and attempted to punch me in the chest. I blocked it and put him in a headlock.

"Dude what the fuck is wrong with you?"

I pushed him onto the bed.

"How could you do this to me? You said you loved me"

Was he serious? How could he get mad at me for doing the same shit that he did? How could he get upset when I was just getting revenge? This was a fucked up situation and I wasn't ready to deal with it. I needed to blow off some steam but I couldn't leave Clarence like this. Clearly he was unstable and might do something tragic. I sat next to him and caressed his thigh.

"Baby I love you. I'm sorry"

"I love you too"

I gave him a kiss and we held each other as we fell asleep. We spent the next two days skipping class and 'making up' with each other. We had sex DAILY. He got horny one night while we were walking to the Cafeteria. We walked into the student center, made sure nobody was watching, and snuck into the restroom. We found an empty stall and went inside. At first I was nervous because I thought someone would see our feet, but those feelings went away as he unzipped his jeans and started stroking his dick. I sat down and placed all ten inches inside of my mouth. I slurped and drooled on his python as he moaned softly. He closed his eyes and tilted his head back as I took every inch. He grabbed the back of my head and pushed me gently. I could smell the scent of his body as I inhaled deeply. I bobbed up and down faster and faster and he was struggling to keep quiet. Suddenly his hips went crazy and he started pounding my face. I could taste the precum and I knew he was getting close. I looked up and saw his eyes move into the back of his head, then I felt his warm load in the back of my throat. I swallowed every tasty drop...freaky!

He peeked out of the stall to make sure that nobody was there, then we both stepped out. I grabbed some paper towels and wiped myself off.

The semester was over two months later and as we cleaned out our room we reminicsed about our relationship. We wondered if we would be able to maintain it through the summer and continue in the fall. I told him I would make a few trips to Dallas, and he promised to visit me in Houston. My freshman year at Freedom U was filled with ups and downs, and I was anxious to see what else Freedom U had for me.

THE END (Or is it?)

Love and Life at Freedom U pt. VI

“What’s good boy…I didn’t think you were going to come through. You want a drink?”

“Uhhh…is that legal?”

He laughed. I wasn’t much of a drinker anyway. He gave me a Coke and I followed him to the couch. His room was much bigger and nicer than mine. He had a flat screen TV, Queen size bed, AND a small kitchen. It was like a small apartment. We started talking about random bullshit like campus girls, professors, and parties. As he stood up for a refill I noticed the bulge in his shorts, so I followed him to the kitchen and grabbed his dick from behind.

“Damn boy” I said as my heart started racing. I could feel my manhood growing.

It felt like he had a MONSTER. I started stroking him back and forth. Then I fell to my knees, pulled it out, and kissed the head. I kissed up and down the shaft before putting the head in my mouth. I sucked and slurped the tip and tasted his sweet precum.

“Damn baby…suck that dick . That shit feels good nigga.”

I moved my head back and forth. He put his hand on top of my head and rocked his pelvis back and forth. I could barely take it. I started gagging, and that turned him on even more.

“Damn nigga…suck that dick. Fuck nigga…”

He started moaning and screaming as I sucked on his python.

He pulled his dick out and slapped my face with it. I stood up and kissed him as he grabbed my ass with both hands. I had never been fucked before but at this point I wanted revenge and Jeremy was going to help me get it. He took me to the couch and unbuckled my jeans. I took of my shirt and stripped down to my boxers. He laid me down and started licking my nipples. I went crazy!

 “Ahhhh shit…that’s my SPOT”

He started biting and sucking my chest, then he moved down my stomach, then he lifted my legs up and buried his tongue inside of me. I jumped at first because I wasn’t expecting that feeling. I started to loosen up and suddenly I went crazy.

“Damn baby”

I closed my eyes and bit my lip as Jeremy slid his tongue in and out of my body. I spread my legs wider and wider.

“You ready?” he asked.

“Yeah pa”

He slid inside of me and I tensed up from the pain. I pushed him off of me.

“It’s cool baby…just relax” he said.

He propped me up with two pillows and put his pole in slowly as I laid on my back. He started moving back and forth and nibbling on my ear. I loosened up and spread my legs further as I wrapped my arms around his neck. His strokes were slow and he was about halfway in when he stopped and kissed me. He kept the dick coming, little by little, until he was fully surrounded by my walls. We didn’t move for awhile…he was letting me get used to it. I started rocking my hips slowly and he responded with gentle thrusts.

“Ohhhhhhhh”

“Damn baby…this shit is so tight…fuucccckkkkkkk”

We started moving faster and faster…all I could hear was the sound of the headboard against the wall.

TAP-TAP-TAP-TAP-TAP-TAP-TAP-TAP-TAP

He flipped me over and started beating it up even harder

TAP-TAP-TAP-TAP-TAP-TAP-TAP-TAP-TAP

By now the pain had turned into complete and total pleasure. I was rocking my hips and throwing my ass back to him. I could feel his body tensing up…I knew he was almost ready.

SPLASH

We both exploded and collapsed in each other’s arms. We woke up about an hour later and went for round two. After that session I kissed him good night and walked back up to my room. Clarence was waiting for me when I opened the door.
“Where the fuck you been?”

“Minding my damn business…fuck you!”

I pushed him away and walked to my side of the room. I wasn’t about to deal with his bullshit tonight. I took of my clothes and headed to the shower.

“Baby let’s talk”

“FUCK you!”

I turned on the shower and stood under the water for about 30 minutes, thinking about what happened. I couldn’t lie, I loved Clarence. He was my first and he would always be special to me. Jeremy was definitely a good fuck, but he wasn't Clarence. Fucking him made it much easier to forgive, but should I tell Clarence what I did? How would he feel? I heard a knock at the bathroom door…

“Baby let me in”

I ignored him…I wasn’t ready to deal with him. I turned the water off, put on my basketball shorts, and walked to my bed. Clarence was waiting for me.

“Why are you in my bed?”

“I’m sorry baby…quit acting like this”

“Whatever”

I got under the covers and went to sleep. He tried to hold me that night, but I kept pushing him away and eventually he fell asleep. When I woke up the next morning he was sleeping next to me. I felt a little bad for the night before so I got up and took a long look at myself in the mirror. I had created a complicated situation, and I wasn’t sure how I was going to deal with it. As I walked back to my bed I noticed I had a slight limp. Damn, that boy must have really put it down! I almost got wet thinking about the night before.

FINALE COMING SOON!!!

Fun Times on I-45

So I'm drivin down the FREEWAY on my way to work and I see a BLACK CHARGER coming up behind me. I always like to see who's in the DRIVERS SEAT...don't ask me why. I guess I'm weird like that. Anywhoo...on this particular occasion there was a sexy dread headed caramel skinned piece of fineness in the drivers seat. As I let him pass me I decided to play a little game. I sped up and got back in front of him. I made eye contact with him through my rearview mirror, then sped down the freeway. He drove faster, pulled up next to me, and rolled his window down.

Mind you we're driving 75 mph down I-45...it's probably not safe to be flirting on the freeway. I looked over and gave him a "Damn baby you can get it" look as I made my way to the next exit. He followed me down a side street and into a vacant parking lot. We parked next to each other and rolled down our windows.

"So what's good?" he asked

"You"

"O yeah?"

"Hell yeah"

He flashed an angelic smile and licked his lips...that was all she wrote! I was already undressing him with my eyes and I could tell that he was doing the same thing. I imagined him to be about 5'9, 180, with an athletic body and a juicy bubble booty. DAAAMMMMMMMMNNNNNNNNN!!!

So he gave me his phone and told me to store my number...and I did. We shook hands and went our separate ways. About three hours later I got a text.

"SUP...dreadz"

Hehehe...and you won't BELIEVE what happened next...

Love and Life at Freedom U-Part V

SECOND SEMESTER

I was ready to get back to Freedom U. I missed being with Clarence. I missed that warm ass wrapped around my dick every night. I missed holding him until we fell asleep. For the first few weeks we carried out our usual ritual of fucking and sucking whenever we could. We would give each other head in between classes and have sex every night. I was falling deeper and deeper every day. He occupied my mind 24/7 and I was losing myself in him.

Clarence and I usually wake up at the same time because we both have class at 9am. On this particular morning I noticed that he wasn’t getting ready for class.

“Is everything alright papo?” I asked.

“Yeah I’m good. I think I have a cold” he said.

I gave him a kiss on the forehead and walked out the door. I was halfway to class when I decided to pick up some cold medicine from the student center and take it back to him. I walked back to the room and as I got closer to the door a chill came over me. I walked closer and closer and I heard the sound of someone moaning. I quietly opened the door and nearly dropped the cold medicine. I couldn’t BELIEVE what I was seeing…

“You like this dick nigga?”

Troy, the RA was fucking MY dude. Clarence was on his hands and knees taking another man’s dick.

“What the FUCK is this?” I yelled as I slammed the door behind me.

They stopped fucking and looked at me. Troy gave me a slick grin and it took everything in me to keep from beating his ass. He put on his clothes and walked out the door.

“Really? Really Clarence? That’s how you do me!? I thought you loved me!”

“I do but…”

“Mane FUCK you”

I threw the cold medicine at him and stormed out of the room. I didn’t know where I was going, but I knew I couldn’t be around Clarence. I shouldn’t have been surprised. All men are the same. I cheated on every girlfriend that I ever had, so I couldn’t expect Clarence to be faithful. I was sitting in the lobby when Jeremy, the building manager, approached me.

“Is everything alright?” he asked. “We haven’t really talked much this year.”

“Yeah, I’m cool.” I said.

“Well let me know if you need anything. I’m always here for you.”

He flashed the prettiest smile I had ever seen before he walked away. A part of me thought that he was hitting on me, but another part figured that he was just doing his job. I saw him again the next day in the Student Center.

“Damn boy, you must be stalking me!”

I laughed at his corny ass joke.

“Nah…I think you are the stalker,” I said. He laughed.

“So what are you doing later?”

“Nothing”

“You should come visit me. I like to get to know my residents.”

“I’ll think about it,” I said.

I went back to my room. I looked on the bad and saw a shitload of new clothes and two new pair of shoes. Clarence was buying me all kinds of gifts and begging for my forgiveness. I really hadn’t talked to him since the incident. Whenever I came into the room I would walk right past him and go to my side of the room without even making eye contact. We hadn’t fucked either. I knew he missed the dick because he was trying to get it every chance he got. He sat on the bed next to me.

“Baby I’m sorry”

He tried to rub my dick but I pushed his hand away and told him to rub on Troy’s dick. I decided that I couldn’t take too much more of Clarence, so I walked out of the room, went downstairs, and knocked on Jeremy’s door.

Legacy can GET IT!

OMG...there's something about LEGACY from the NEW BOYZ that DOES IT for me (he's the yellabone)...he makes my heart skip and my dick JUMP

I mean...look at him! I can tell he's got some GOOD in them skinny jeans.

When I get thru with him he's gonna be adDICKted...trust me...
I don't wanna go to JAIL so I guess I'll hafta wait till his 18th birthday (which should be coming up soon). But trust me, it's goin DOWN! I'm movin him to the top of my LIST!

New Flavor (Kinda): ESSO

What can I say...this boy is TALENTED!

He did a hot rap cover of MJ's "DON'T STOP TIL YOU GET ENOUGH" and the video is BANANAS (yes I said BANANAS)

He has a hott mixtape

And he's cute!

Check him out HERE

It's About DAMN TIME!!!

Ok so I always follow the BILLBOARD charts because I love music and I want to know what's hot. The BLACK EYED PEAS have held the #1 spot on the Hot 100 for 26 weeks, which is a HUGE accomplishment that's never been done before.

Now don't get me wrong, I love the Black Eyed Peas. In fact, 'My Humps' will always be special to me because it's the first song that I ever heard in a gay club. But DAMN I was getting tired of seeing them at #1 every single week, and they have FINALLY been dethroned...

Jay Sean f/ Lil Wayne is #1 this week with DOWN. I love this song, and Lil Wayne definitely did his THING on the track (with his sexy ass...yes I said it!). So congrats to them for knocking BEP out of the top spot and giving us a little variety. (And he can DEFINITELY get it!!! With his cute self...)

Billboard Hot 100 (Top 5)

1. JAY SEAN F/ LIL WAYNE-"DOWN"

2. Miley Cyrus-"Party in the USA"
3. Jay Z, Rihanna, & Kanye West-"Run This Town"
4. Jason DeRulo-"Whatcha Say"
5. Black Eyed Peas-"I Gotta Feeling"

8709 PSA: Why Do We Lie???

Men are LIARS

POINT BLANK

PLAIN AND SIMPLE

I haven't met a man alive that does not/has not lied at one point or another. Now everyone tells white lies (which is still wrong, but that's a topic for another night) but men lie about DUMB SHIT.

EXAMPLE #1:

QUESTION: "Where have you been?"

TRUTH: "I went out drinking with some old friends"

LIE: "Uhh...nothing.I had to work late"

See, a STUPID lie in a simple situation. It would have been much easier to tell the truth, because it ALWAYS gets out.

Let's dig a little deeper:

EXAMPLE #2:

Cell phone goes off...

QUESTION: "Who's that?"

TRUTH: "It's a dude that I'm interested in. He's cute and I wouldn't mind fucking him"

LIE: "Uhh...it's my cousin"

Clearly you and your cousin don't have that damn much to talk about, and after a little INVESTIGATING, the truth will come out in this situation as well! Now I can understand why someone would lie here. I mean, really, who's going to tell their significant other that they wanna fuck somebody else? But you never know...your dude might not mind you playing in other fields. Hell, he might even join you for a round or two.

So what's the moral of this story? Tell the GODDAMN truth...even if you don't think it's what the other person wants to hear...

Britney Spears: "3"

Now what kind of homo would I be if I didn't acknowledge Britney Spears' latest single??? It's called 3 and it's already on my list of all time BRITNEY faves (Right behind TOXIC and WOMANIZER).

The song is very direct and provacative (it's about a 3some). The beat is SICK and her voice is a perfect match for the 'electropop' rhythm.

Listen Here

NEW USHER---"Papers"

YESSSSS my boo thang is back with a new single! Sean Garrett wrote the track, and he said that it's NOT about Usher's marriage to the MANBEAST...uhh I mean the lovely Tameka Foster. But I'll let you decide...

Papers

Total Randomness...Let's Chill

Thanks to @JustSimplyJohn from Twitter for inspiring this post...


It seems that whenever someone says 'Lets Chill' they ALWAYS wanna FUCK. There's no such thing as 'chillin' anymore...it's all about fucking. 


"When we gon chill?" = "When we gon FUCK"


Why? What happened to sitting on the couch and watching a movie? And a good movie, not a boring one. 9 times out of 10 a guy will invite you to his house and put on a boring movie that you have both seen a million times so your attention will shift to other activities.


What happened to dating? What happened to dinner and a movie? (Even if its just McDonalds and Redbox)...


And what about the people that really wanna CHILL?

The Rapper

So a rapper recently came to the city on a little tour to promote his album. I won't say who it was, because that would be RUDE. I won backstage passes to his concert on the radio...so I put on a nice little outfit, my best kicks, a fitted Dodgers cap (although I'm NOT from LA) and drove to the venue where the concert was taking place.

I watched this rapper as he commanded the stage with his lyrics. After the show I waited backstage with three other lucky fans (all female) for the rapper to show up. When he finally got there, the four of us sat in his dressing room talking about random nonsense. The girls were doing their best to...well you know how groupies are. As we talked, I noticed the rapper would occasionally glance at me and then look away. In this lifestyle that means ONE thing: he wants to FUCK.

So I had to calm myself down. I was definitely looking at him, but I didn't want to be noticed. I've had a crush on this rapper since his first single, but I never really thought anything would go down between us. I never even thought I would meet him in person. But he's a cool guy with a decent personality...and he's hella smart. But he won't stop STARING at me.

He licked his lips. I was the only one that saw it, so obviously the gesture was meant for me. I was getting nervous...what should I do? I wanted to strip of my clothes and let him take me in the dressing room, but that wouldn't be very proper...shit fuck proper, he's a fucking rap star! His body guard pointed to his watch...it was time to go. They escorted the ladies out, then he shook my hand and gave me that 'come get it' look before closing the door behind me. He gave me his hotel key...

I was definitely NOT going to pass up this golden opportunity. I went home, showered, changed, and drove to his hotel. I got to his room and knocked on the dor...WAIT...I have a key. I slid the key into the slot and the door clicked open. I walked inside...nobody was there.

"Hello?"

I started to leave, but I heard the shower running so I decided to sit on the bed and wait. About 10 minutes later he came out with a white towel draped around his waist. My dick got ROCK hard!

"Sup shawti" he said. "I didn't think you would show up."

DAMN! His body was on point! And his ass was gorgeous.

"So what's good?" I asked...I was ready to get this party started! I got off the bed and stood in front of him. He unbuckled my pants and pulled outmy rock hard mellow yellow candy bar and put it in his mouth.

"Dammmmnnnnnn baby"

He was going at it like a PRO! I grabbed the back of his head and started rocking back and forth. I closed my eyes and tilted my head back as he took all 10 inches in his mouth. I pulled it out and laid him on the bed face down. I buried my face in his ass and my tongue went to work! He was moaning, screaming, and gripping the sheets. I pulled my face up and grabbed a Magnum from the nightstand. I lubed up, spread his legs wide, and put my manhood in inch by inch. He was tight and his walls were on POINT! I started stroking slowly.

"You like that?"

"Yeah daddy"

I started moving faster and faster. He kept screaming and moaning, but he was taking it like a pro.

"Work that dick baby...damnnnnnn"

Something about fucking this macho rap star made me go crazy. I flipped him on his back and started hitting it Missionary with his legs wrapped around my waist...then he flipped me over and started riding me as I gripped and slapped his ass.

DAMN

He started rocking and gyrating like crazy until he climaxed. He got up and put the dick in his mouth. He started bobbing his head back and forth until I released in his mouth and on his face. He smiled at me and said "Damn baby...you can get this ANYTIME." He grabbed my phone and stored his number under the name RAP STAR. We took a shower together, then shared a long kiss before I left.

The Facebook Generation

My BF is hella OLD. Ok he's not THAT old, but he's older than me and he can remember a time when sites like Facebook didn't exist. (So can I, before you try to DO him). He can also remember a time before cell phones, texting, sexting, picture mail, AIM, YIM, Twitter, and Myspace. Social interactions have changed within the last 5-10 years. Hell they have changed DRASTICALLY in the last year since TWITTER has become so popular. In the days before cell phones were as hot as they are today, you had to call someones house phone (I know what you're thinking...WTF is a HOUSE PHONE?) in order to talk to them. Imagine being a guy calling your BF's house phone and his mother answers? What do you do then?

It was definitely difficult to be homo before the days of social networking. I honestly don't think I could have done it because it would have been harder to meet dudes. In the days of Facebook/Myspace you can clock somebody by simply looking at their pictures but it wasn't that easy back in the day. Yes, I can honestly say that Facebook made me the way I am hehehe...

Social networking has also taking hoeing to a new level. You can request someone as a friend at 8am (who the fuck gets up that early)...they accept at 9...you send each other messages from 10-11...you get his number at 12...and you're at his house for a lunch time smashfest at 1pm, then it's 'on to the next one' as Jay-Z would say. And I won't even discuss sites like BGC and A4A because...well you already know.

Now there isn't anything wrong with Social Networking. Each generation is DEFINED by one thing or another, and we are the Facebook generation. I'm a little worried about the next generation though...Those born in the mid to late 90s will be the first generation to experience life with full technology (laptops, cell phones, etc.). Be afraid...be VERY afraid....MUAH!!!!!

Total Randomness...WTF is Wrong with Me???

Lately I've been feeling depressed. Ok I take that back, depressed isn't the word I'm looking for...it makes me sound suicidal. I've been...uhh...well I really don't know how to describe these feelings I've been having lately. I'm 22 yrs old, I have a college degree, a house, and a BF. SO I should be happy, right? I really should. There are sooooo many people in this world that are in situations worse than what I am going through. I'm just trying to FIND myself and navigate through this journey called life (I know I've used that line somewhere before). Sometimes I feel lonely. That's weird, because I have a BF that lives WITH me and a pit bull that constantly gets on all 22 of my nerves.

Sometimes I think I need a little BREAK. And sometimes I feel like I made a mistake by getting a house. Don't get me wrong, it's a huge blessing but it's also a tremendous responsibility. And now I'm stuck in a city that I hate for the next five years. OK hate is an ugly word. I don't HATE Houston, but I don't particularly like it either.

But I realize that I need to make the best of this situation. God does things for a reason, and I need to be thankful for what I have. I need to serve as a positive role model for my little sister. I love my life and I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world. I just wish this crazy ass emotion that I've been dealing with would GO AWAY!

I LOVE Football (Players)

As I'm watching ESPN and fantasizing about the football players that flash across my screen, a thought pops into my head:

What is our obsession with football players?

I LOVE football players, and so do many of my friends. But why? What do football players have that other people don't? What qualities do football players possess that other athletes lack? Don't get me wrong, I love basketball and baseball players, but there's something about an NFL wide receiver that makes me wanna ............... well you get the picture. Personally, there's something about the way a football player carries himself. He has a certain 'cockiness' about him that's hella SEXY. What do YOU think???

Champ Bailey-Denver Broncos

Matt Forte'-Chicago Bears

Andre Johnson-Houston Texans

 Reggie Bush-New Orleans Saints

Reggie Bush is DEFINITELY my favorite...I mean LOOK at him!? And he has skills on the field as well...

Love and Life at Freedom University, pt. IV

I was in a daze. I had never felt anything like that before. We added a new item to our ritual. I was fucking him silly every single chance I got. I was scared that I would catch feelings for him and I wanted to distance myself from the situation. I didn’t want to get too involved because I figured he would treat me like I treated many of the women in my life…like SHIT. Not to mention I didn’t know how to be romantically involved with another man.

The more I thought about it, the more I realized I had feelings for Clarence that were deeper than sexual. There was something about his smile that made me tingle. I decided to talk to him after one of our sessions.

“Clarence, we need to talk.”

“About what?”

“About us…”

“Awww fuck…this is exactly why I don’t fuck with new boys like you. You are confused.”

“What the fuck you talkin bout? I’m wanna be with you…exclusively”

“Oh really?”

“Yeah…”

“That’s what’s up.”

So that was it…it was official I guess. Clarence was now more than my fuck buddy. I didn’t know why I wanted a relationship with him. I didn’t know what I was getting myself into but that night we had the best sex EVER and continued our relationship through Christmas break. We didn’t get to see each other often because he was in Houston and I was in Dallas but I convinced him to make the four hour trip on New Year’s Eve. He picked me up from my house and we drove around the neighborhood and talked.

“I missed you” he said.

Even though we talked on the phone every night I missed him too.

“Oh yeah?” I asked.

Even though I missed him like crazy, I didn’t want to seem like a bitch by showing emotion, so I tried to be nonchalant.

“How much did you miss me?”

By this time he had parked the car at the back of the neighborhood. This was an undeveloped area with plenty of room for naughtiness. He leaned over and kissed me, which made my dick go hard.

“A lot.”

He reached under my sweatpants and grabbed my python. I was rock hard and pre cumming. He put his lips on the head, treating my dick like a lollipop.

“Ohh shit”

He continued to tease the head before going down the shaft and licking my balls. He went back up and took my whole dick in his mouth. He bobbed his head up and down. I grabbed his neck and moved my hips back and forth.

“Damn baby…suck that dick. Damn…SHIT”

I exploded in his mouth and on his lips. He grabbed a towel and wiped his face.

“That’s how much I missed you” he said and we both started laughing. My feelings
for Clarence were getting deeper and I was getting scared. It wasn’t right for me to feel this way about another rman, but I knew that it was too late. I was in too deep. I wondered if I was falling in love.

“How do you feel about me?” I asked.

“What do you mean?”

“I don’t know”

I wanted to end the conversation, but he said something that shocked me.

“I love you”

“What?”

“I love you baby…you are my everything. I think about you every day and you make me happy.”

That made me smile from ear to ear.

“I love you too.”

He dropped me off at home and I waved goodbye. He told me he was going to his cousins house and he would make the long drive back to Dallas in the morning.