Sunday, October 4, 2009

Total Randomness...WTF is Wrong with Me???

Lately I've been feeling depressed. Ok I take that back, depressed isn't the word I'm looking makes me sound suicidal. I've been...uhh...well I really don't know how to describe these feelings I've been having lately. I'm 22 yrs old, I have a college degree, a house, and a BF. SO I should be happy, right? I really should. There are sooooo many people in this world that are in situations worse than what I am going through. I'm just trying to FIND myself and navigate through this journey called life (I know I've used that line somewhere before). Sometimes I feel lonely. That's weird, because I have a BF that lives WITH me and a pit bull that constantly gets on all 22 of my nerves.

Sometimes I think I need a little BREAK. And sometimes I feel like I made a mistake by getting a house. Don't get me wrong, it's a huge blessing but it's also a tremendous responsibility. And now I'm stuck in a city that I hate for the next five years. OK hate is an ugly word. I don't HATE Houston, but I don't particularly like it either.

But I realize that I need to make the best of this situation. God does things for a reason, and I need to be thankful for what I have. I need to serve as a positive role model for my little sister. I love my life and I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world. I just wish this crazy ass emotion that I've been dealing with would GO AWAY!


  1. find something new. go out and do something. volunteer at a homeless shelter & i know those feelings will go away. its okay to feel tht way, its normal. yu jst hv 2 find out wht will mk the feeling go away. best of luck to yu.

  2. Thankx...I told myself I was gonna volunteer for Habitat 4 Humanity. I guess I need to get on that and quit bein lazy lol

  3. I agree with Bfears ...You should d a new hobby and explore a part of the city each week when u have an hour or 2....houston is a big city...thats a lot to dislike..go and see what is out there. never know what you might find baby.

  4. I felt the same way before... I had to count my blessiing. In the end, I tried to run away from those emotions and thoughts by leaving houston. I ended up right back 2 months later. I had to learn to stick it out. Check out the story of Job from the bible.