SO I always wondered what it would be like to live a secret life. There's so much negative hype surrounding me on the DL, but there's also negativity surrounding homosexuals in general. I wonder if life would have been easier if I had kept my sexuality a secret. Of course I'm not OUT either. I don't mind telling people how I am, but it's really nobody's business. I get tired of people asking about my relationship or making jokes about my sexuality. The shit gets irritating.
I try not to care about what other people think. If you don't like how I live my life, FUCK YOU. Simple as that. Dealing with sexuality isn't easy for anyone. It's especially hard when you are at a crossroads in your life. Every day is filled with different emotions. It's hard to deal with life, love, and relationships when you have so many thoughts running through your head. I think a good VACAY is in order!
Anyway, back to the point. DL seems 'cool' to me. I've been reading a few blogs and it seems like their lives are a lot less complicated. I'm sure they deal with their own issues...who doesn't? But at this point in my life I don't think THIS is what I need.
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Well you say you dont care what others think ,then why live your life on the DL? Their lives arent easier, they just hide it better.
ReplyDeleteI think you are grown and you dont have to talk about anything you dont wanna talk about including your sexuality but it wont make it any less easier to deal with by being on the dl.
If you can live your life that way, then more power to you, but the day will come where you will have to deal with it and hiding it or DL as you say will not work. You only get one life, why spend it hiding who you truly are. If someone cannot accept you for you, like you said FUCK THEM but dont resort to this DL lifestyle to feel better about yourself because you wont. If anything you will think about it more because you have no one to discuss it with or you cant just be as free as you want to.
I suggest you be discreet which means you tell who you think deserves to know but never consider yourself DL cause as you said, they deal with their own issues but boy if you only knew what these damn folks deal with being on the DL. Its not a way you want to be. You seem to be a smart creative young man, be youreslf.
*DELLA!
Thanks for the encouragement...it means a lot to me!
ReplyDeleteI hope so baby. There is nothing like living your own life for you. I cannot stress enough that you will be the one to have to look back on this life and think about how much time you've wasted thinking more about your sexuality and other's comfort levels only to find out as you get older and wiser...they never really gave a damn about you.
ReplyDeleteDONT BE THAT GUY BABY. YOURE SO BEAUTIFUL AND CREATIVE AND INTELLIGENT....STRIKE OUT ON THAT ROAD LESS TRAVELED..SOMEBODY HAS GOT TO STAND FOR SOMETHING. YOU BE THAT BACKBONE FOR YOU CAUSE THE OTHERS WONT LET YOU KNOW RIGHT OFF THE BACK THAT THEY WONT DO IT FOR YOU...NOT NOW AND NOT EVER.
PLEASE BE STRONG HONEY. AND MAKE THE RIGHT DECISION.
DELLA LOVES YOU!
*DELLA!