Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Mommy Dearest

Mothers...

A mom is always supposed to be there with a helping hand, a kind word, and a shoulder to cry on...right???

I've always been a 'MAMAS BOY'. Ever since I was little I wanted to be under my mother. Maybe it's because I'm the oldest...or maybe it's because I'm her only son. But I've always felt a deep connection with my mother and I love her very much. Unfortunately our relationship seems to be changing. It feels like I'm losing her. I'm sure it has a lot to do with my lifestyle. It's something that she can't handle, and honestly if I could turn back the hands of time I would take back the day that she found out. I wish she didn't know, but that's something that I can't change and I have to deal with it.

But it's hard. The person I love the most in this world seems to be distancing herself from me...or maybe it's just me. Maybe I'm finally growing up and realizing that I don't need her as much as I did when I was a little boy...but a man always needs his mother, no matter how old he gets. Oh well...

2 comments:

  1. You're getting older and becoming even more independent of Mommy. It's all a part of growing up. I've been there. However, that last statement is the truest.

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  2. Wow, I feel the same way. I am not the only boy, but I am the baby, and my brother and sister are so much older than I, so most of the time it was just me and her. Over the past couple of years we have grown apart for different reasons, I know she still loves me the same, it's just hard to deal with @ times, but I have to live for me!

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